Thursday, July 30, 2009
The awful truth is that nobody really cares about me. People say they do but in the end it's not the way I need them to care. I'm a vampire sucking the care and concern right out of them. I miss Dean so much and he just takes my money than ignores me all week long. I wish I would die in my sleep. I hate my life. I am empty with nothing left to give. I'm just a purposeless loser, a slave to this system of greed and material wealth. Does everybody feel this way? Am I crazy or am I just too real for my own good. I wish a satellite would fall from the sky and land on my head.
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I'm sorry to hear you feel so bad. I call it "under a pile of borderline garbage and didn't know how I got there." I'm glad you're blogging about it, though. That always helps. Good luck and take care. Steph from How Pigtails Sees It. (I saw your link on Spliit.)
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ReplyDeleteJust found your blog, and was wondering... Are you still alive?! I too am struggling with borderline, and wanted to say hey and that you're not alone.
Megan
Yes hun, I'm very drink and head is aching badly. I had about 15 beers who knows at least a pack of cigarettes and 10 hits or so of some killer hydro. I'm on my iPhone, trying to go to sleep I have to be at work at 1130 am and it's 534 am. I'm going back to school next semester to finish my bs (bullshit) degree. Took 2 tylonel an had a bowl of lucky charms wish me luck for work I deal with customers and persuading people not sure I'm feeling that motivated I let some sweet little kids down tonight to instead get beligerent drunk and feel like a slut. I wish I'd stay at home and snuggled with children.
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